The first week I pondered the words I will trust in you. That is the way I want to live my life trusting in God no matter what. Whether he moves the mountains, parts the seas, or gives the answer I want, I still want to trust.
But this week another message came out of these lyrics.
When You don't move the mountains I'M NEEDING YOU TO MOVE. Too often I ask quickly for God to move the mountain, when what I really need is the endurance it takes to climb the mountain. I am no runner. I want to be really bad, but I am just not. Brett on the other hand has been able to lace up his shoes and run at the drop of a hat ever since we have been married. Occasionally I have tried to run with him. He would coach me on the right way to breathe, breathe in through your mouth and out through your nose, or is it, in through your nose and out through your mouth? Could be why I couldn't get it I couldn't remember it. I learned I could run as far as I could hold my breathe because that is how I ran holding my breathe. Not very effective you don't go to far. Over the past year Brett and I have walked hundreds of miles but I became determined that I was going to be able to run with him this summer. So, a couple of weeks ago when I started my walk on the treadmill I decided to try running. OK lets be honest its more like a light jog. But I started slow for my three miles I ran 1/2 a mile and walked the second 1/2. Last week on my first mile when I got to the 1/2 mile point I decided I can do a full mile and I did. This week when I reached my mile I told myself you can go further and I made it 2 miles without stopping. I was super excited. I tell that story because that took endurance and it felt great. Sometimes my faith needs that endurance it takes to climb the mountain, to finish the race.
When You don't part the waters I WISH I COULD WALK THROUGH. Again, my desire my wish, when maybe God's desire is for my faith to build the stamina, the character it takes to swim across the water. I recently did a 30 day plank and wall squat challenge with a friend. I didn't know if I would make those last 3 days when we were doing planks and wall squats for 4 and 5 minutes. I know, doesn't sound like very long right, not until you try it. It took more stamina to hold those 5 minutes than I ever knew I had. Thanks Kalee.
But when God doesn't move those mountains and the endurance in my faith grows, and when God doesn't part the waters and the stamina and character in my faith increases. Then, when You don't give the answers as I CRY OUT TO YOU, my hope will be in the trust I have in You. When those around me are hurting I will trust in you, when I don't know what the answers are I will trust in you. When I can't see or understand your plan I will trust in you. When my anger wants to take over I will trust in you, when it's easier to withdraw I will trust in you.
Romans 5:3-4 "....but we rejoice in our sufferings, know that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope."
